It's been a tough and enlightening week
My last post was June 28th. Today is July 5. A little over a week.I'm honestly going to keep part of the personal items brief. I've lived through them enough for the week.
My daughter passed away from a suicide back on April 12th. I have been living with that evey day and will continue to do so. What has made it difficult was knowing her birthday was coming up, which was today, July 5th. I spend time with her mother and my youngest son planting a couple trees in he memory. I was tired (still am) because of the fireworks for July 4th went on into the wee hours of the morning, causiung me to get very little sleep. So yeah, I am a little sad and emotional today.
To add into this, my step-sister passed away on July 2nd from cancer. She was only 47 years old and left kids and grandkids. We were not close, but she was still family. Her dad (my step-dad) is someone I care about very much and this is his second daughter he has lost. Both of his children. Gone before him. I cannot even imagine. One has been heartbreaking enough for me, the though of my other two going before me? I cannot and do not want to even think about it.
Enough family stuff... I am getting a little annoyed with AI. I am also getting very annoyed with Reddit and Facebook. I wish I could totally expunge them from my life. Reddit I probably could if I truly committed to it. FB is another story I have shared before. I'm tired of social media, tired of people who have nothing positive to say, people who troll and do not think before they open their fucking mouth (or maybe they do think and it is jsut a rotten brain?)... AI is also pissing me off because, regardless of what the naysayers spout, AI for the average Joe is getting dumber and I believe it is on purpose. They want to entice us. They want to get us hooked and then give us inferior products to what we had in order for use to spend more money. Then when everyone does that, they dumb it down even more. Its ridiculous. The models I used 6 months ago were coming up with fanstastic, accurate, and usful output. Now? It is almost all halluci9nation, think it knows what I want, and when I TELL IT what I want, it gets it totally wrong and makes shit up. Even when the task is siple and the directions very clearly prompted (and yes, even iwith a backend of system .md's to keep it on track). It's becoming a waste of money for the one or two tasks I get it to do to save time, but even then I have to double check results.
I have to double check results EVERY. FUCKING. TIME. If I want it to be right, I have massage it from beginning to end. Otherwise, the output is garbage.
It's affected how I am working now. I pay for Claude Code AND Codex because they both USED to be good at different areas of my online life. Now, I cannot rely on either. I am finihsing up a new novel. I had it help a lot, but so far I am finding as I read through it, I am having to almsot completely rewrite sections of text because it either makes not sense, or has totally ignored my VERY detailed writing system. Two of my earlier novels came out incredible 6 months ago. Now? I cannot even get one to be even close to publishable. Same system. Dumber output.
I had plans for some future projects, but now I am not so sure I want AI involved. It's a struggle. And yes, I know that if I go back to writing my own code, it'll take months, maybe years, to complete them. Maybe that is how it should be. But the simple fact that 6 months ago a project that would have taken me 6 months was completed in days and turned out exactly like I anticipated, is proof in the pudding that strange thinks are afoot at the CircleK in the AI world.