My Journal
Monday 14 September 2026
11.58am
Not sure anyone actually reads this. Probably not. So really, getting wrapped around the axle about how much I post here finds me realizing I need to chill… doesn’t matter.
I have and active, anonymous blog that I can pretty much open myself up to as well as other sites I contribute to that leave posting here pretty much for the ragged refuge left over! 😆
I am also off and running in pursuit of my master’s degree, so I’ll be doing lot’s of reading, lot’s of writing, and spending the free hours I have absorbed with all that.
Seriously considering backing off some of my self-hosted projects. I have decommissioned a few services I really just did not use or need and even took one server completely offline as it was using up space, electricity, and adding to the heat issue in my small apartment. Three existing servers running that I could probably get down to two. Maybe one if I offload onto one of my remote VPS hosts.
Some thing to think about.
Saturday 5 September 2026
6.48pm
Every generation has catch phrases and words associated with them. Currently, the word is “slop.”
I’m just going to be very blunt with my thoughts on this. If you use the word slop in your post, article, blog, whatever, as soon as I see it I will have lost all interest in what you have to say.
Why? Because you are a hypocrite.
You are ranting and raving about something on the premise that it was created without “human thinking.” When you use that word, you are doing exactly what you are ranting about – not thinking by gratuitously using the current rallying cry against AI instead of having a thought of your own.
I scan though posts on bubble.town, Reddit, mastodon.social, indieweb.social, and Lemmy and this word get’s tossed around so much that people using it think they are coming across as being on “team human” when in fact it feels like they can’t think, on their own, of a better word or original thought than slop.
I would rather read “AI slop” that at least has the excuse in that it is only regurgitating human input, but what is the excuse for those humans producing their own “slop?” Every post ranting against AI slop is the same, repetitive, boring as fuck party line. You are not saying anything new. You are not making a case against AI. You are just doing what AI does: repeating what you ingest.
So yeah, ride your high horse and think you have something useful to say.
You don’t.
Saturday 29 August 2026
4.44pm
My brain still thinks I am 30 and my body fights it tooth and nail. I had a band gig last night, old school 9pm to 1am. The gig was over an hour away so I loaded my vehicle at 5pm with all the PA and my gear then drove out there. two hours to unload/setup, four hours of playing, and other hour of tear down and then another hour and 15 minute drive back home put me home at 3:15am. 10 hours for a few days of gas money.
It’s a good thing I love playing music.
But I woke up today around 9am, sore, tired, and lethargic. I didn’t unload last night so I still have to do that, and I am putting it off. My body hurts. People don’t realize how physical it is to be in a local band. We don’t have roadies, and instrument techs. We do more than just “stand up there an play” (which is also exhausting…if you have ever performed at a biker bar you know how energetic it gets and it is easy to get lost in the “moment”).
Yet I keep on doing it, at 60 years old. Ask me today If I want a gig this week and you would think I would turn it down, knowing how exhausted I get… but I would take it.
To be honest, I don’t know how long I can hold this pace up. I “really’ love playing for an audience. It’s like a drug. But my old, out of shape, dad bod that has ailments a lot of guys my age have, it’s starting to complain, loudly and clearly.
Part of me thinks I should find and pay a young person to help with the hard physical labor portions of gigging, take the pay cut and be happy with it because I am still doing what I love. I have truly considered this. But the money, while not enough to pay my bills is pretty solid income to fill in the gaps. Taking a pay cut would be noticeable I think.
I am honestly just thinking out loud here, on a day that I have been napping and nursing my old ass all day. But getting old is become a very real reality.
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